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get real about love

2/14/2019

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Heart art from the incomparable (Ithaca local!) ALiCE MuHLBACK. (Alice made my logo!)

get free of 3 painful patterns in relating

Attachment, frustration, rejection: 3 simple and super-recognizable relational patterns. It’s so helpful to see how they’re operative—because, simply put, they take us away from love.
 
Note that we all have all three patterns, with one predominant. They work together: you have to be attached to something in order to be frustrated that it’s not in place and then reject what you don’t want. Note, too, that I correlate these 3 styles to Enneagram types at the very bottom of this post!
 
This may seem more heady than my last deeply heart-based Love Overhaul post, but I promise there’s some gorgeous wow-juice in here. I’ve laid it out with simple clarity (not saying you’re slow or thick, oh, NOT-Molasses One; I know your life is full). And this may look long, but it has lots of skimmable bullet points.
 
I’ve illustrated each pattern below with simple “I” sentences. Scan for the phrases that resonate (uh, and maybe feel cringey). I invite you to watch first for your own relational patterns, then later consider how you’ve been on the receiving end of those of others.
 
As you read, remember there’s nothing to judge: this is just what we human beings do. We’re just trying to get our needs met because we don’t trust that’s always happening anyway. We don’t trust that life will show us how. We don’t trust that we’ll be okay if we don’t grab the reins from others (or use more subtle tactics to manage them). So read with compassion and kindness to yourself.
 
Attachment
What could I be attached to that would keep me from purer forms of love?
  • I want you to see me a certain way. (Here, hold this image of me.)
  • I want you to approve of me. Think relentlessly well of me.
  • I want you to respond to my charms.
  • I want you to notice I’m tap-dancing for you. And doing that with
    • great skill
    • total ease
    • my own certain je-ne-sais-quoi
  • I want you to give me what I want from you.
  • I want you to compliment and praise me.
  • I want you when I want you.
  • I want you to be a certain way. (Hold that pose! I love it when you’re [cute smart strong dignified down-to-earth artistic hilarious warm attentive mysterious ethical lively competent shiny unflappable alive].)
  • I expect you to stay a certain way. (I love you just the way you are.)
  • I want you to stick around.
  • I want you to be there for me in a certain way. No matter what I do.
  • I want you to make me comfortable. (I can cheerfully, constantly direct you in that. And not so cheerfully, as needed.)
  • Hey, let’s play the hot-cold game. I can get you where I want you to go.
  • I want you not to rock my boat. Don’t rock the boat of the relationship we’ve built. (I like the leak-proof, solid structure.)
  • I’m going to keep referring mentally or conversationally to what you or we used to be. (That was real. This is not.)
  • I will not engage with you as you are now or be in the relationship as it is now. (Aw, come on, let’s go back in time together.)
  • I’ve got some clear outcomes in mind and I will keep angling for those.
  • I will do anything to hold on to
    • (my image of) you
    • my own I-dentity that you support me to keep
    • my concept of U-and-I-dentity.
  • I believe in who we are (or could be) together.
  • Let’s hang in there. Let’s keep trying. Let’s make this work.
  • I must have you. I believe I can’t be happy without you. I may not be able to live without you.
  • No one will ever love you like I do. (No one will ever love me like you do.)
 
Frustration
How do I cultivate or demonstrate frustration, thus staving off the purer forms of love?
  • I don’t like this. (Grrrrrrr.)
  • This isn’t going the way it should. (I know what makes sense. Not this.)
  • This is not right, good, efficient, appropriate, productive.
  • This irritates or irks me. (Ick. Irk. Grrrrrrr.)
  • This disappoints me. You disappoint me.
  • You’re not behaving in a way you should.
  • You're not in integrity.
  • I’m going to fix you. Hey, this for your own good. This is for us.
  • I know what you need to change in yourself.
  • I object to the timing in your growth trajectory.
  • If you’re in right, good, and true relationship with me, you’ll align with how I want to fix you. Or fix us. (Or both.)
  • You’re not being real about what’s going on, so I’m going to goad you and push you to be real.
  • I pick fights or stir up intensity to counter what is or isn’t happening.
  • I build a wall of jealousy between us because of things you have or achieve or when anyone or anything not-me has your attention.
  • I may seek to make you feel jealous. (You asked for it.)
  • Hmm, this isn’t coming from you in my color or flavor. I don’t trust your motives or delivery here, so I’ll categorically disregard all you’re saying or offering here.
  • This is boring. I need this whole scene to rev up.
  • Bored. I need you to step up your game for my entertainment. (Come on, look alive. Surprise me.)
  • You’re not [funny fun sparky sexy sweet savvy smart serious confident quick cool charming chill glad glam good] enough.
  • I’m not fully here because I don’t like what’s happening here. (Excuse my brisk exit.)
  • I won’t drop in with you because of my own anxiety and discontent. (Hey, so, nothing personal, I’m just gonna check out mentally or conversationally, check my phone, check for the next infusion of interesting or intense.)
  • I want better, more, something new, something else.
 
Rejection
How many ways could I feel or wield rejection to keep myself from purer forms of love?
  • Any attention you direct elsewhere, I chalk up as rejection of me.
  • When you want to be alone or with others, I believe you’re rejecting me.
  • I fixate on how you don’t appreciate me, never mind adore me. (You don’t even really see me or all I do for you.)
  • I can’t help but notice you (still) don’t lavish love on me the way I want it lavished.
  • When you don’t meet my needs or wants in the way or timing I want you to, I reject you.
  • I may set up the above by making my requests at the worst possible times. (See? Confirmed: you’re NOT there for me.)
  • I will not receive. I will reject (I may not even notice) what you give me or do for me.
  • I won’t see or remember that you ever give to me or do for me.
  • I won’t believe that you want to give to me or do for me.
  • I will not take what you have to give: I’m the giving one. (I’m the fucking Giving Tree.)
  • I will not leave you to work it out; I won’t listen to your ideas: I’m the one who gets it; I’m the one equipped to figure this out.
  • I will not leave you to take care of it: Look, I actually know what to do. I’ll do it right.
  • I will take over or drive this project: I’m the strong, decisive, active one. (It all falls on me anyway.)
  • I reject my needs and wants or fail to see them at all, and that will affect how I relate to you.
    • I may focus on your needs instead of mine (and hold you hostage for how much I do for you).
    • I may not see or respond to your needs.
    • I may push you and your needs aside to force some agenda that makes sense to me. (Don’t worry, it’s for the good of all.)
  • I punish you when what you do doesn’t suit me or align with my attachment.
  • I turn my gaze away from you.
  • I withhold any number of things (time, touch, sex, sweetness, attention, affection, gift-giving, sharing my stuff or skills, pitching in to support projects or events or even daily maintenance in our shared world, listening, speaking kind or loving words, praise, noticing or responding to things you do, say, or are).
  • I may disconnect from you or sever ties completely. (I may not explain. Fuck you. Pay attention next time.)

PAUSE. Allow an integrating breath to go fully in and fully out. You can stop here and just notice and take in the ongoing story of attachment, frustration, and rejection in human (your) relating. Or read on (or come back later) to get more clarity on moving beyond them.
 
Countering these relational patterns
I’ll give you a bunch of helpful bullet points, then I’ll give you the big, most important thing, the one thing to focus on if nothing else. (Spoiler alert: It’s about presence. Boils down to NOW.)
  • At the risk of repeating myself, judge nothing related to these patterns: just human stuff that you, as a human being, will face—so better to accept that. (Note that it really doesn’t even make sense to be horrified by any of it.)
  • Work on releasing and countering your judgments of the other. (The Work of Byron Katie is great for that. So is my simple inquiry shortcut laid out and given as a pdf worksheet here.)
  • Release others to their path, their journey, their ways, their choices, their timing for their own growth and development. It helps me to come back to this phrase: I release you to your life, and I release myself to mine. That gets me squarely back in my business.
  • Practice simple course-correction when you catch yourself in attachment, frustration, or rejection. (If you’re not judging it, you can course-correct much more swiftly.) Note that you don’t have to know exactly what to do to course-correct. Do you see one thing to do to aim roughly for what feels better? Do that.
  • Simply soothe yourself sometimes instead of trying to figure things out (never mind talk or duke it out with another when you’re all riled up!). Soothe yourself first.
  • Know and practice the difference between the good kind of moving away from another (to draw a needed boundary for self-care, to sort yourself out, to come to calm and clarity before further discussion) versus the punitive, disconnecting, mean-spirited, self-sabotaging kind.
  • Choose to focus more often on what you love about others, yourself, life, this moment.
  • Abraham-Hicks invites us to focus on the positive aspects of anything, certainly our partner and relationship. Write them down! Abraham suggests keeping a journal of positive aspects. Writing in such a place even briefly, often (daily as needed!) can make a huge difference. Don't worry, it won't take you into denial. It will counter most human beings' natural tendency to focus on what's wrong. It will call forth more of the good stuff as you give that your attention. (That's the Law of Attraction.)

About NOW as the key, once again
Speaking of this moment, NOW can be understood as the great solution, the foil to the relational patterns, if you’re clear on the difference between relationship and relatedness. I learned this from Jessica Dibb and Russ Hudson, two brilliant teachers of the Enneagram.

Relationship is about structures, agreements, and expectations.
Relatedness is about active, dynamic, live, in-the-moment relating with another. You’re relating with who they are right now as who you are right now.

Once again, now is your best friend. Now contains all you need in every realm of life, and certainly to express, experience, and act upon love. (It occurs to me all human relationships are love-based—even in our professional lives, even in quick exchanges with a cashier: we’re always emitting, receiving, exchanging love.) Actual relatedness requires being present right now to what’s actually happening, what’s being said, what’s being felt.

I like to think of my progeny in terms of the current version of them. There have been so many versions over the years, so I get to keep falling in love with who they are now. We can apply this to anyone, and bring it to now: the beloved before you isn’t simply a current version as in this year’s version or this era’s; this is the current version right now, in this very moment. There has been and will be no other moment like it.

We support one another’s becoming and our endless potential to transcend false identity by simply allowing one another to be as we are right now and drop in for that. Drop in with curiosity, awe, amazement, the sense of what a privilege it is to witness and partake of this moment, to participate in it fully, to discover someone you love all over again, to discover yourself again in the process. Does it get any better than that?

I invite you to the freest love you have access to at any given moment. Breathing consciously into presence, you can witness and shift out of attachment, frustration, and rejection.

If you’d like a simple, beautiful love credo (which got more responses than anything I’ve written perhaps ever), see my post Love Overhaul.

If you're Enneagram-aware, note that the attachment types are 9, 3, and 6; the frustration types are 1, 4, and 7; the rejection types are 8, 2, and 5. (Still, we all have all three, whatever our core type!) Note that each of the 3 relating triads discussed here has a representative type from each center! (Example: For attachment, 9 is the body type, 3 is the heart type, 6 is the head type.)

Baffled by the order I named the types for each of the 3 styles in the first sentence of the prior paragraph? I named them in the order of the 3 centers—body types first (891), then heart (234), then head (567). That's the flow of the Enneagram.


Love and blessings, Jaya

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